Take it ezee...

My dad always used to tell me that life is a struggle no matter what the outcome is. We are humans and our base function is to try and move towards comforts beyond our present means. This is the struggle, a constant grinding struggle. Once you gain  your senses after coming to life, then its about scoring marks, or leaning some talents, then it is about putting these to use and getting a job, then getting money, then getting married, get a passport, a PAN card, a ration card, a voters card, a marriage certificate, a hospital card, a driving licence, an employer's certificate, gosh the list goes on an on, and then you have a child, get his birth certificate and help him till he gains his senses, and then you retire to wonder what exactly did you do in life? Well, if you did all that is mentioned above then you had a successful life coz you fulfilled your primary function of constant struggle and you are a human in retrospect.

 

But I just wonder once in a while, the struggle never changes from one man to the next to the millionth to the last. Should it not be that the struggle becomes easier over time and we start reaching for more achievements than just prove that I am ME a hundred times in fifty formats for 300 cards in the best part of my life?

 

Long live the struggle. (Pray someone knows why)

Ever wonder why guys and gadgets are almost the same conceptually? I am not sure I know yet, or even if I will ever unravel the reason I get all orgasmic when I see one cool gadget or another. But I have to confess that I fell for it again. I bought an O2 pocket pc shelling a whole lot of my savings just because I could not think of anything else in the few days between I lost my older phone and got this new one which acts as a phone in one of its hundred other functions. (By the way, do you notice how happy I sound when I am talking about loosing a phone? Happens man, have to move on. :-) This is life.)

 

Well, taking things as they come, no matter what the cost.

 

(Feeling guilty like hell, but I know it all works out in the end.)

 

Ever done something like this? If yes, mail me at ezeeactor@yahoo.com.

 

Take care and get those dreams you have been waiting all your life for.

Yes, we finally managed to launch the alpha release of our product. It was such a relief that finally we have something concrete to show for all these months of work. It was a great feeling of jubilation. There are a lot of bugs and improvements pending in the product, but at least we have some base to work with. Now we don't think in terms of what more to add, but how to improve what we have added. Of course, there will be many more feature additions, but you see, untill now, we never knew what we have to improve on. Now, we are enlightened by some faint beam of light showing us a vague direction. This is a good thing to happen to anyone/anything. The coming to life of a product or person is not by mere ideation or existence, but by purpose.

 

I am alive, not just existent.

Guys, there is nothing like a strong adrenalin rush to revive your hopes in life. I am in the middle of a product release and the rush is so strong that I am absolutely enjoying it. Yes, at the end of the day the feeling of achieved somthing does hold a lot of value. As I saw on the poster of "Rang de basanti", "Live life, stop analyzing it..." TRUE... Very true.

 

Have a bud. :-)

Some days are hair raising, and some others are hair tearing days. Days when you forget that you have two hands, two eyes, a nose and all those little things that make you up. You are so busy with the daily chores that you remember getting up and then you remember laying on the bed waiting for sleep to overcome your tired senses. Where does the rest of the day go? Absolutely no idea. Today, after a hectic rush of four days I got time to breathe and realised that I have not posted to my blog for so long (long because I made a promise to make a post everyday, even if it is only a single line).

 

Time flies man, for sure it does. And all you can do is hang for dear life from the wings. Once you land at the end of the day, you sit back, try to relax and start tearing your hair when your mind would just not stop racing.

 

Now that I am breathing normally again, I realise that life is a sum total of all your experiences, and the experiences that matter are the few precious moments after the maddening head rush. Remember the chaos theory?

 

Keep your hair raised and don't forget to recap once in a while. My blog helps me here. Some day in the future, I am going to enjoy replying myself running around like a lost bunny in the woods. Adios.

 

Keep those rushes coming.

After all the noise and festivities, its another new day. Nothing looks or feels different, but mentally I know that I can blame all my misfortunes on a bad year and hence look forward towards a better one ahead. An astrologer once told me that every man is defeined purely by his KARMA, in the past, present and the future. He gave me a very simplistic breakup of every man's astrologically defined (so called) destiny. According to him, there are four parts that club into two groups and when combined as a single entity, this forms the man's astrological destiny. Astrology breaks down a man's astrological destiny into two parts, namely, "Destiny" and "Free will". "Destiny" further can be broken down to "What you did in the past" and "How much of what you did in the past has matured to reflect in the present life". And similarlym "Free will" breaks up into "What are you doing right now" and "What are you thinking of doing in the future". And as a closing statement he said, "If free will is strong enough, it can change destiny, otherwise, with a never-can-be-changed desiny factor, there won't be any point to living. Would there?"

 

I laughed and felt relieved. At least I still control my life by my actions and not because I was destined to be. The feeling that I am in control helps. And that is where the new year concept is so great. It says, leave whatever that went wrong behind and start afresh. Technically we can do that every day, even every hour. But being humans, the support of the rest of the known world surely helps. Its all for hope, its all for knowing that there is some reason to live, that no matter what, being happy is not destiny but free will.

 

Be free. Have the will.